according to my email the other day was national good looking person day. awesome. or not at all. whatever. i would have put a self portrait on my blog today to celebrate but this girl who i sort of know told me that scrolling through my blog was hilarious because hello thousands of photos of me looking the same. actually i lie for effect. she is actually this girl i sort of think is fabulous and actually know quite well even though she is in japan which feels like a bazillion miles away.



even if it wasn't national good looking person day, today was national make my life hard day. woe is me or whatever. and i spent a day in a meeting with a woman who left, said thanks and then called me strongerlight's real name. leading me to believe she HAS US MIXED UP. what the?

also i'm growing increasingly concerned that my youth is passing me by. so am looking to pursue more youthful activities over the next wee while. like irresponsible drinking. and listening to kelly clarkson. my flatmate put kelly's walk away on my ipod and guess what? it is my new theme song. i want to yell: i'm looking for attention, not another question. should you stay or should you go? well if you don't have the answer, why you still standing here? hey hey hey hey. just walk away. i'm not sure who i'd direct this youthful anger at. but when you're youthful you don't need to be superrational about it all. i might direct it at the MAN. my workplace. that keeps me down sometimes.

this bitterness (newfound) comes from the fact that today is pay review announcement day. that's right. disappointment. not bad necessarily. but the thing is one day, not that long ago, i went into my boss's office and saw a piece of paper with my name on it and the magic figure 16 beside it. and i'm all like: oh my GOD i'm getting a $16K pay rise. well needless to say today i learned that this 16, whatever it meant, was unrelated to my pay. BIG TIME UNRELATED. it was probably a squiggle.