i’m so hot for men in loveless marriages.




i’m reading the age of innocence. and archer, the main character, is in a loveless marriage. in the chapter i just read, archer has shared a carriage with ellen olenska, object of his affection, and she tells him off for talking dirty to her despite the fact they are both married. later archer contemplates his lot after wife may warns him that sitting by an open window will cause him to ‘catch his death’…

but i've caught it already. i am dead – i've been dead for months and
months.

it is inevitable here that i’m going to mention jack and ennis from brokeback mountain. the movie that unfroze my ice queen heart and let me cry again. goddamn loveless marriages getting in the way of their sex filled fishing trips. jack. ennis. you will always be together in my dreams.

and now, NOW, i find i’m once again madly in love with a man in a loveless marriage. joaquin phoenix in walk the line. RE-OW. big time. “hello” he says. “i’m johnny cash”. and i melt. like almost literally. i had to check myself to make sure i was still, like, solid. i wont go on because obviously i don’t want to ruin the story. but did i say re-ow.

anyway, i used to think ‘what point marriage?’ but now i’m like: boys marry young to unsuitable women. develop some kind of mental health issue / addiction. over come it. then come see me.