i'm in love with brandon flowers.


like MAJORLY in love.


as a result i'm borderline depressed because i know we probably won't ever hook up. but just in case he googles himself and finds this: i would turn mormon.


last night i went here. i expected it to be good because i've basically listened to sam's town on rapid rotate for the past year. but it was infinitely better than i could have imagined. number one they used fairy lights to disguise ugly things, like keyboards, on stage. number two huge machiney things threw glittery confetti at the audience during key songs.... very vegas. and three brandon flowers sounds even better live. i know what you're thinking... how? and to be honest i don't know.


i had just about the worst seat in the house.

but no worries because mr flowers looks AMAZING in profile. obviously.

they started with sam's town. and the already mentioned glitter. and the people around me stayed seated. so, in line with etiquette i stayed down too. then HIT after HIT. bones, when you were young etc... and it wasn't until somebody told me, my least favourite song - albeit still an awesome one - that people stood up and i finally got to let loose. and believe me i did. it was as if i'd convinced myself that if i danced awesomely enough brandon would notice me, a hundred rows up. and we could finally be together. but of course i'm far too switched on to tell myself that kind of fiction. hmmm.

anyway, people around me sat down the moment the song was done. very ordered. but when this river is wild came on i could NOT hold back. and i became the lone dancer in my seating block. dancing like my future happiness depended on it. but also i don't think i've ever danced to that song before even though it is basically my favourite song of all time. it turns out... the moves just flow.

anyway, i don't want to give you the impression that the killers were not working the crowd. there were other seating areas that basically never sat, and the general admission area looked like a jumping beast. and somewhere near the end of their pre encores set my seating area joined the party big time. oh and yeah, three encores. they were universally adored.

i bought a band tee. i hate tees. i'm wearing it now and i may never take it off. well i'll have to take it off at least once, to customise it (i really hate tees, mostly because they are made for boys not girls), and you know every morning when i shower. but apart from that, it is my 24/7 wear.

i wonder if bands like it when they are stalked by fans in band tees? in other words, should i go and find their hotel this morning? probably not, ahe?