when i was a new employee i wanted to milk the organisation for all it was worth so enrolled in every course offered. which is how i ended up at an assertiveness for women course. attendees were all over fifty or under twenty or me (who, hello, was barely over twenty at the time). and we drew mind maps and i got to draw pictures on the whiteboard to illustrate how i felt about certain situations. we were taught a mantra for when someone did something we didn't like: when you_________ i feel __________ in future could you please_________. i have never used that awesome tool, except to mock. what a wasted course.

except for one thing. today on the bus i was obsessing over work and then the words of my assertiveness for women trainer hit me: use your bus ride to assess your day, think about what you will do tomorrow and then turn off.

so anyway i thought about my day (it sucked) and what i could do tomorrow (maybe use an i feel statement for the first time, or ask to do more assertiveness courses) and decided that the moment i hopped off the bus i would stop thinking about work. but lo! twenty minutes later i sit on the couch and watch ten reasons to love misheard song lyrics on c4 and i'm still actually thinking about work. vomit. interestingly one of the songs on the misheard lyrics show was my mind sedate by shihad. i felt like jon toogood was singing to me. and it felt sickening.... home for dinner watch tv....

just as well i have something meaningful in my life - crochet.

my favourite executive assistant ever left to go back to the uk three months ago and in the process gave me a large bag of odd balls of wool to play with. and yesterday i made my nephew a cute hat out of brown and white wool.

he's going to rock the winter wardrobe with this hat. i will need to make myself one now so that we can be twins and rock winter together. it is just as well i've rediscovered my crochet outlet. because i hear from the weatherman that winter is just around the corner. and with daylight savings making sunlight hours less enjoyable i am pretty much only going to crochet until september (when i make my way to the US of A and a month of spas and weddings and celine dion. AWESOME).